Controlling Rage Around Women

[locutus24]

I'm 39 years old. But I know how it was back in the old day, and from living around other ethnicities for nearly my entire life, I know that many of them do not bother it. Hence why their men have no problem finding a mate! It only takes common sense to see that "liberation", "freedom", and the sexual revolution did not result in men having more access to sex! What it did was cause an abundance of women for top-dog men to choose from while being unable to marry them all, and in turn, ambitious, hypergamous women thinking that "men are dogs" simply because such men can't commit to all the women who want to date up!

Then towards the middle and bottom of the dating totem pole, that is, men with modest means and connections and/or attractiveness, were assed out, and still are in some ways, though many still have managed to marry and form families. 

Step outside of yourself and reflect on this statement: "I am not seeking companionship with any women. My plan is to get sex whenever possible."

Does this sound normal or healthy to you?  Why do you not want female companionship and only to have women to solely have sex with? I can't predict the future, but I can only see this backfiring on you. 

I do not say this in anyway to ridicule you. That is not my aim. But let's face it. If you are some guy admitting people give you the cold shoulder, you are in no position to even expect women bedding you down so easily. If i have it correct, you are attending school on a large campus (I have an idea of which school from the clues provided here, but I will not even mention) in a crowded, diverse city, for a difficult major. Plus you are psychologically complicated  and intelligent. Let's get real here: you are likely more suitable to just finding a woman who fits you than to be some guy having sex with an assortment of women. 

PS: I don't blame you for hating many people in NYC. What's there to like about them?

The situation sounds kind of hopeless. I would argue I'm in the average category so what the hell can I do? I believe you when you say the rage will go down after finding a women, but the rage itself makes it hard to approach women at all. It's not merely me being unconfident, though that has happened in past. It's just I already hate them and therefore see them as an enemy unworthy of being around. I haven't spoken to one woman out of interest for 8 months. Yep, I counted the months. A long ass time. Being isolated can do strange things to the mind. Paranoia, sociopathic-like thoughts, aggression, and high stress levels. I don't blame anyone but me for this cause I made the choice though the environment did influence me somewhat. 

It's Columbia University which you may have guessed. Excellent academics and shitty social opportunities. It's one of the worst schools to do social clubs. Barely any frats or communities. And female students are very stuck up and entitled cause they all come from rich/high status families with business connections. Me? I'm from a rural community and none of my family is college educated. I'm basically a nobody at this school. I tried at first to make friends, but it always back fired. My only outlet for the anger over being a social outcast is to lift weights at home to get the anger out of me. Works some days. Most of the men on campus are skinny white dudes who probably have never even been in a fight. I don't even bother dealing with them as they annoy me. 

I'm not sure what kind of woman would fit me or rather me fit her? I'm introverted and not the most charming talker. I'm sorry but I'm not gonna use fake game charm techniques as women are intelligent enough to spot those. I don't keep up to date with the latest fashion, talk shows, reality tv, celebrity gossip, movies, tv series or anything which most hot women love talking about, at least in my experience. I study, play piano, work part time, do BB, eat, shit, sleep and that's about it. That's my life in a nutshell. I'm basically a machine that repeats the same routine each day. I'm not trying to self loath too much. Just state what my life really is. 

I read these BS articles from women bloggers who say things like "why introverts are sooo attractive" and it's BS. Most of the attractive women don't want an introverted creep. 

NY sucks balls. I've lived here for a few years and I still have not acclimated to this place. It's the aura. I can't explain it. In my apt I feel safe and content as it's a sanctuary, but moment I walk out into streets the aura feels like a grey/gloomy purgatory. I plan on moving out of here once I graduate. 

I appreciate your response though. You are wise and know a lot about dating and women. Man I just had deja-vu. I swear I typed this to you before.