12-08-2018, 05:18 PM
I'm going to be blunt. I despise women and tend to get very rageful when around them. Just the sound of their voices like the "Californian blonde chick" accent can make me a raging animal inside my head.
I have to go this unfortunate date/mingling event tonight and only doing it to get practice with talking to some new women at a place I've never been. However, I'm already getting paranoid and angry. Anticipating all the terrible things that can happen with women. Oh, and for context this is in NYC, a place where women have the highest standards ever and where competition is really fierce. I'm still in last year of undergrad without any prestigious job or social status and am competing against men who have careers in Wall Street so my odds are not in favor for me.
How do you other guys control your anger so as to feel calm and confident "inside"? I haven't found any ways to do it. I can pretend to look calm and confident on the "outside", but it can't hide all the insecurities from women since they are blessed with that sixth sense of detecting men who are unstable, no matter what the men do to hide it.
I always worry I will get arrested one day when I get pissed by a woman who says or makes some gesture to disrespect me as a man. My therapist just teaches me meditation techniques and they only work maybe 25% of the time. I sometimes resort to calming drugs but then I get all spaced out at the bars/clubs and end up zombiefied in the corner on a couch somewhere.
Dating sucks as all posters on here seem to realize.
I have to go this unfortunate date/mingling event tonight and only doing it to get practice with talking to some new women at a place I've never been. However, I'm already getting paranoid and angry. Anticipating all the terrible things that can happen with women. Oh, and for context this is in NYC, a place where women have the highest standards ever and where competition is really fierce. I'm still in last year of undergrad without any prestigious job or social status and am competing against men who have careers in Wall Street so my odds are not in favor for me.
How do you other guys control your anger so as to feel calm and confident "inside"? I haven't found any ways to do it. I can pretend to look calm and confident on the "outside", but it can't hide all the insecurities from women since they are blessed with that sixth sense of detecting men who are unstable, no matter what the men do to hide it.
I always worry I will get arrested one day when I get pissed by a woman who says or makes some gesture to disrespect me as a man. My therapist just teaches me meditation techniques and they only work maybe 25% of the time. I sometimes resort to calming drugs but then I get all spaced out at the bars/clubs and end up zombiefied in the corner on a couch somewhere.
Dating sucks as all posters on here seem to realize.