Controlling Rage Around Women

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I'm going to be blunt. I despise women and tend to get very rageful when around them. Just the sound of their voices like the "Californian blonde chick" accent can make me a raging animal inside my head.

I have to go this unfortunate date/mingling event tonight and only doing it to get practice with talking to some new women at a place I've never been. However, I'm already getting paranoid and angry. Anticipating all the terrible things that can happen with women. Oh, and for context this is in NYC, a place where women have the highest standards ever and where competition is really fierce. I'm still in last year of undergrad without any prestigious job or social status and am competing against men who have careers in Wall Street so my odds are not in favor for me. 

How do you other guys control your anger so as to feel calm and confident "inside"? I haven't found any ways to do it. I can pretend to look calm and confident on the "outside", but it can't hide all the insecurities from women since they are blessed with that sixth sense of detecting men who are unstable, no matter what the men do to hide it.

I always worry I will get arrested one day when I get pissed by a woman who says or makes some gesture to disrespect me as a man. My therapist just teaches me meditation techniques and they only work maybe 25% of the time. I sometimes resort to calming drugs but then I get all spaced out at the bars/clubs and end up zombiefied in the corner on a couch somewhere. 

Dating sucks as all posters on here seem to realize.

Dating does suck. Which is exactly why in the old days no one did it. It's also why rich communities' children generally don't do it and why some ethnic groups in America still don't bother with it. 

Dating sucks away all the organic nature of a budding relationship and leads female hypergamy and sexual competition and gives women the "freedom" to make very bad decisions and waste their time and energy, which in turn leads to the male rage we see these days. 

You've read my other comments on how I empathize with you. 

Women have also gained the "freedom" to pursue careers, so much so that many high ranking positions are occupied by Boomer Generation females. I've worked with quite a few. And I'll say this: of the few people to whom I hold enormous hostility and who makes the worst co-workers or people to manage, they are all women! 

But this rage is controlled because I am extremely grateful for my wife, who "traditional" or "old fashioned" (which is a coy way of saying, "normal woman"), my great friends, and family. If it weren't for them, I'd be in very bad shape. 

I strongly suspect if you find a normal woman and start a family your rage will dissipate. In healthier times, there were almost no incels or men put through the meat grinder called dating! All of the social institutions that keep society, particularly those that kept men from breaking down, were intact. There were large families, places of worship, a sense of community, small towns, softly arranged marriages, and so on. 

Dating is a disaster activity and I plan on having my son avoid it. There are ways to make such avoidance possible.