09-14-2019, 10:29 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-14-2019, 10:30 PM by TruthSeeker.)
(09-14-2019, 01:28 PM)Loverboy Wrote: I went through some of my facebook history yesterday as I couldn't sleep, and saw some of the women I'd texted with in the past. I again felt the revulsion and weariness that I now am affected by whenever I think of dealing with women online. I really am not exaggerating when I say I am physiologically repulsed and wearied by it to the point my body just won't do it anymore even if the price is celibacy.
That's why I would honestly like to know TS, how do you keep doing it? what makes you able to carry on? is it as simple as the pussy outweighing the cost for you still?
I never keep the chats and always block them once it's over, but I know what you are talking about.
I've had insomnia for the better part of this summer. I can only sleep if I am extremely physically tired.
How I do it? I don't know. It's certainly not the "pussy" since I am not getting any. You can say that it is the expectation of "pussy", but it's not that either. I just don't want to be alone and keep lying to myself that a magical event will take place, but it won't.
A part of me really wants me to give up, but for some reason, I continue to crash my head against the wall like a natural bodybuilder who's done 50 routines and still thinks that number 51 can make a difference.
I dream of the day when I will stop. Maybe tomorrow?