11-21-2018, 01:57 PM
I was once like many other people brainwashed by the fitness community. I trained religiously for 3 years, I missed very few workouts, I burned out and overtrained more than once, I suffered joint pain, fatigue, sleeping problems, I dieted and got pretty lean in various occassions, but the hunger defeated me every time after some weeks or some months. All in all, though, I loved every moment. I felt alive whenever I was training. I felt like a hero, sometimes. I felt like I was on a sacred quest to save the world. Every time I lifted or learned a new skill, I felt like the world was saved, at least until my next workout. Even when I was frustrated, I loved working out. It was a passion, it was an obsession.
Now, all that is lost.
It happened after I had to stop training and, due to a medication (that I should have never taken) gained pounds and got fat and ugly. I hated it. After a while I lost the fat and looked reasonably lean (yet nothing breathtaking). The thing is, I started thinking for the first time in my life about taking steroids. My thought process was like: "if a medication (drug) can make me so weak and fat, then another drug (steroids) can make me strong and lean." I began to understand the power of pharmaceutical products.
In the end, though, I decided I would not take steroids. Not worthy, at least for me.
Then, gradually, I lost all my motivation. Where once was love, now there is boredom, annoyance, even hatred. Sometimes, I hate training. I cannot train. My mind gives up. My body gives up. My soul gives up.
So... I want to ask you what should I do to get motivated again. I don't pretend to be a zealot of training as I used to be (once you lose your faith, you never get it back as strong as it was before), I just wanna enjoy my workouts, and get the benefits of exercise (improved health, better cognition, more energy and less stiffness).
I know many of you are more enlightened than I in regards to training, for you're capable of working out even though you know you'll never look like you want, but you still find a way to do it, maybe to enjoy it. What can I do? How do I get motivated again?
Thank you, and sorry for the long post. I tend to wander and digress a lot when writing these type of things.
Now, all that is lost.
It happened after I had to stop training and, due to a medication (that I should have never taken) gained pounds and got fat and ugly. I hated it. After a while I lost the fat and looked reasonably lean (yet nothing breathtaking). The thing is, I started thinking for the first time in my life about taking steroids. My thought process was like: "if a medication (drug) can make me so weak and fat, then another drug (steroids) can make me strong and lean." I began to understand the power of pharmaceutical products.
In the end, though, I decided I would not take steroids. Not worthy, at least for me.
Then, gradually, I lost all my motivation. Where once was love, now there is boredom, annoyance, even hatred. Sometimes, I hate training. I cannot train. My mind gives up. My body gives up. My soul gives up.
So... I want to ask you what should I do to get motivated again. I don't pretend to be a zealot of training as I used to be (once you lose your faith, you never get it back as strong as it was before), I just wanna enjoy my workouts, and get the benefits of exercise (improved health, better cognition, more energy and less stiffness).
I know many of you are more enlightened than I in regards to training, for you're capable of working out even though you know you'll never look like you want, but you still find a way to do it, maybe to enjoy it. What can I do? How do I get motivated again?
Thank you, and sorry for the long post. I tend to wander and digress a lot when writing these type of things.